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I want a do over

Do you remember in elementry school when you'd make a mistake and say, "I want a do over!" Sometimes you'd get the chance to go back, start over, and do things better. Today was one of those days that seemed like one thing after another. Half way through the morning I was wondering about the wisdom of even getting out of bed this morning.

I thought that once the sale was complete, some of the uncertianty would settle down. I thought when my boss returned from maternity leave, things would get back to normal. My boss has decided not to return. It looks as though she'll be working part time or as a freelancer. That means I'm likely getting a new boss. Will they be understanding of HPS? I got some information about the health plan the new company wants to offer. It seems none of my doctors are on the plan. Do you know how long it has taken me to find the right doctors?

I found out one of my friends that has cancer is likely out of remission. She'll get to spend the holidays in the hospital. I found out the new company only offers us three sick days a year - so I'll have used them up by the first week in January since I'm supposed to be in the hospital then.

And, the news this week for our newsletter at work was terrible. The new management is going to wonder what the heck we're doing - are we really reporters?

The new health plan also only covers medical supplies partially - so I'll be paying more for ostomy and CPAP supplies - how much more can I pay in medical bills before it's not worth it anymore? At what point do I actually come out ahead being on disability?

I'm trying not to panic.

I'm trying to reason, to somehow point out the unworkability of these offers - maybe I'm wrong. Maybe there's something in this pile of insurance "stuff" that I'm not understanding or missing somehow. It's giving me a headache. I'm going to bed now. I want a do-over....maybe it will be better in the morning.
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Care said…
Oh Heather, that is a lot to be dealing with and sorting through at one time. I've been through a corporate sales, downsizing, and outsourcing - and that alone is terribly stressful, and then to add having to worry about a new boss, medical needs, and especially the insurance - ack! The insurance issue sounds particularly tough. I wish you could have a do-over.
11:35 PM
Kathryn said…
Heather,

What magazine do you work for? I've searched for your name online, but haven't found anything related to your work. I think of you often when I can actually have the ability to study for me Mass Media Law and Ethics class. It's quite interesting...

I'm sorry for all of this bad news and unknowns. It sounds like you've had a hard week!
8:28 AM
Unknown said…
Hey Heather,

We're sorry you had such a rough day, yesterday. Thats such a bummer:( Insurance is always a stress. Thats so awful to have to switch to all new docs. It so hard to find someone who will listen and work around your health needs. We'll continue to pray that things will get better. Don't give up on hope. God is in control.

Take care,
Candice & Crystal
1:17 PM
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