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Another poo day

Today was a frustrating day. I was just about to leave for work when I felt “the itch” again. A quick dash to the bathroom confirmed that I was leaking. There was no way to fix the problem and still catch the bus.

So, I fixed the problem. What else are you going to do? As I pulled the ostomy pouch off once again there was a raw spot under my stoma and it was bleeding. Not a lot, but it doesn’t take a lot to make things leak.

I thought I’d fix the problem and then call a cab and go to work. Wrong.

By 10:30 pm, in the span of only a couple of hours, I went through four pouches. Thank God my insurance is currently covering the cost of my ostomy supplies. For many years the insurance didn’t cover it and I had to pay for them. I suppose it’s the years of shelling out money for them myself, but the little cash register is clicking away in my head on days like this.

By afternoon things had calmed down. I was able to get some work done from home – although not nearly as much as I’d hoped. I’ve also felt really, really fatigued today again. This afternoon I was having the “hot flashes” again.

This evening I needed to be cleaning house, cooking dinner, catching up on work – but instead I laid on the couch like a big lug feeling frustrated that every time I try to do something I feel so tired.

After dinner the pouch was back to leaking. I’ve gone through a month’s worth of pouches just today. And the crazy thing is the sore spot isn’t bleeding this evening – it’s just really sore. I don’t know what the problem is, but I probably won’t sleep well tonight for fear of more leaks.

As my friend Sheena would say, would someone please pass me some cheese to go with my whine! Grin!

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