I have been so touched by the many e-mails and offers of love and support you all have offered during the last week. I'm blown away.
I do want to clarify something though. Some of you are worried that I'm choosing HPS over a worklife. You all have been very worried about that. I love you guys, but I'm not stupid. I well aware of the need to keep a roof over my head.
What I meant by what I said was this. It has been suggested by several people that I take a sabbadical from the HPS world, resign from the board etc. There is no way that doing those things would help this situation. In fact, I believe it would make this worse. Besides the fact that I love my HPS friends and I could never just sort of turn you all off, I too have this gene. No matter how well I'm doing, I could never "forget" about it. It's there, like a little time bomb just waiting to go off. It affects my brother as well. I have no power over that. The only way I can stay sane is to keep doing the things I'm doing - as I tried to say, it isn't a choice. It's survival.
I do want to clarify something though. Some of you are worried that I'm choosing HPS over a worklife. You all have been very worried about that. I love you guys, but I'm not stupid. I well aware of the need to keep a roof over my head.
What I meant by what I said was this. It has been suggested by several people that I take a sabbadical from the HPS world, resign from the board etc. There is no way that doing those things would help this situation. In fact, I believe it would make this worse. Besides the fact that I love my HPS friends and I could never just sort of turn you all off, I too have this gene. No matter how well I'm doing, I could never "forget" about it. It's there, like a little time bomb just waiting to go off. It affects my brother as well. I have no power over that. The only way I can stay sane is to keep doing the things I'm doing - as I tried to say, it isn't a choice. It's survival.
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