Lately I’ve been feeling so much better than I did the last part of January and most of February. The weather has been beautiful here, and I’ve been walking at least 45 minutes a day and not feeling totally crappy afterwards. Sometimes my schedule won’t allow me to do 45 minutes at one go, so I break it up into two walks. Maybe that’s not the best, but I figure it’s better than nothing. I’m just so happy that walking feels good and that I don’t feel wiped out when I get home!
But, lately I’m back to feeling tired again. I hate fatigue. It’s one of those “symptoms” that’s so hard to nail down. It can be caused by any myriad of things. It can be totally debilitating, and yet often nothing shows up on blood work. It isn’t “severe” since it doesn’t hurt – yet it’s hard to explain to the people around you that when you say “I’m tired” you don’t just mean you didn’t sleep well the night before or you need a nap. I mean I’M TIRED!
Last Thursday evening I wasted much of the evening dosing after work. Friday evening I dosed in and out quite a bit, and Saturday I wasted most of the day sleeping. Sunday I felt great! Sure, I’d had all this sleep! But by Monday I was battling the fatigue again, trying to concentrate at work and battling to stay awake. Today is the same. I feel so tired. I’m having a hard time focusing. I feel tingly in my hands and when I walk around the office I feel a little light headed. I’m also having strange “hot flashes.” Given the nature of our building’s calendar-run heating and cooling system, however, I’m not sure if that’s really a physical symptom, or just the “weather in the office.” But, I do know that I’ll be sitting here feeling just fine and the next minute I’m sweating and feeling all flush in the face. Then, five minutes later I’m fine again. What’s up with that????
And, the really frustrating thing is that if I mention it to anyone, they’ll very logically tell me to go to the doctor. That will mean missing another day of work, and every time this happens and I go – it’s a complete waste of time. I’m not running a fever. I have no physical anything going on that anyone can observe. Thus my cries of “I’m tired” get met with – get more sleep. I’d be willing to bet that if I went in right now my blood work would be completely normal. Happens every time! WWWHHHHIIIIINNNNEEEEEE! And, tomorrow, or in a week, or in a month the fatigue could be gone again. Who knows.
But, lately I’m back to feeling tired again. I hate fatigue. It’s one of those “symptoms” that’s so hard to nail down. It can be caused by any myriad of things. It can be totally debilitating, and yet often nothing shows up on blood work. It isn’t “severe” since it doesn’t hurt – yet it’s hard to explain to the people around you that when you say “I’m tired” you don’t just mean you didn’t sleep well the night before or you need a nap. I mean I’M TIRED!
Last Thursday evening I wasted much of the evening dosing after work. Friday evening I dosed in and out quite a bit, and Saturday I wasted most of the day sleeping. Sunday I felt great! Sure, I’d had all this sleep! But by Monday I was battling the fatigue again, trying to concentrate at work and battling to stay awake. Today is the same. I feel so tired. I’m having a hard time focusing. I feel tingly in my hands and when I walk around the office I feel a little light headed. I’m also having strange “hot flashes.” Given the nature of our building’s calendar-run heating and cooling system, however, I’m not sure if that’s really a physical symptom, or just the “weather in the office.” But, I do know that I’ll be sitting here feeling just fine and the next minute I’m sweating and feeling all flush in the face. Then, five minutes later I’m fine again. What’s up with that????
And, the really frustrating thing is that if I mention it to anyone, they’ll very logically tell me to go to the doctor. That will mean missing another day of work, and every time this happens and I go – it’s a complete waste of time. I’m not running a fever. I have no physical anything going on that anyone can observe. Thus my cries of “I’m tired” get met with – get more sleep. I’d be willing to bet that if I went in right now my blood work would be completely normal. Happens every time! WWWHHHHIIIIINNNNEEEEEE! And, tomorrow, or in a week, or in a month the fatigue could be gone again. Who knows.
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